Sad day/Good Day

Today was a hard day filled with challenges and triumph.  This morning I had my 6 month apt with my oncologist.  It has been 4 1/2 years since I had cancer.  Even though it has been so long I still have so much anxiety over these apt's. First was the pelvic exam w/ Dr. Hoogerland, everything was good. Next bloodwork.  Since my apt was early in the day I was able to call late this afternoon and get results-Good news as well.  So much relief.  Also today Aubrey had her stitches taken out.  Again she was a very brave girl and sat like a champ for the doctor.  Now to keep her calm for the next couple weeks so she doesn't split the wound open.  Mama would not do well with that:)  Worst thing of all today, was news that my cousin Nicole was in ICU for an overdose.  She attempted to take her life last night.  Very sad day.  She is improving and it looks like she will pull through which is an obvious relief, but leaves so much pain and sadness for her and her family.  I am so sad for her kids.  They are only 8 and 10, and must be so worried and confused.  Nicole has battled many female diseases, that are quite painful and had just had enough, so we suspect.  I have had a huge pit in my stomach all day just worrying about her and her kids.  I really pray tomorrow is good news and that she is out of the woods.  I hope they are also able to help her heal in many other ways!

Braces

Well braces are on, and she was a champ!  It went very quick and smooth.  She has been quite a bit sore, I feel bad for her, I remember how uncomfortable it can be. It is going to be 60 degrees today, very exciting.  No big plans, hopefully I'll come up with something to do in this beautiful weather.

Aubrey the brave!

Well I've hit a new milestone, Aubrey is my first to get stitches!  Yikes,  we all know I don't do well with blood, especially not when it is gushing from my sweet little four year olds head.  Tony took the girls to Possibility Playground on Saturday, and Aubrey tripped and fell and on her way down, her head hit a bolt on the equiptment.  He rushed her home where I was, and yelled for me.  She had blood everyone, running down her face, all over her clothes and her hands were covered.  It was absolutely heartbreaking!  I held her in the back seat of the car as we rushed to the ER.  From the time we got in the car, she never cried.  The only thing she said, is "mommy keep holding it in the same spot", referring to the rag I was holding over her wound.  At the hospital they put shots in the wound to numb her, cleaned it out really well, and put in 8 stitches.  She never flinched or cried, or even complained.  I am so proud of her!  Still trying to figure out where she got her toughness from, certainly not me!  She was so brave.  I have to admit, I kept it together, but barely.  Inside I was freaking out.  I wanted to cry and throw up at the same time.  I really don't do well seeing my kids hurt, and hate where my mind takes me, the worry I have about what may be wrong.  She looked like she was in a war zone, and it was devestating to me, but I did manage to stay calm.  She relieved she is ok. Love my girls to pieces, and pray this is the worst that happens to them! So proud of my brave little trooper!

3/21/12

I have been without a computer since last week, and not able to blog for a while.  Tony is really struggling with us being in another state.  I feel bad for him, don't really know how to help.  I thought about letting Aubrey fly back with him this Sunday when he returns to Denver, and having her stay until we go there in 2 weeks.  I'm a bit relieved, with it being short notice, the ticket was just too expensive.  It would be very hard for me to be away from her for 2 weeks! Hopefully he will have a good weekend being back home with us. Makenna is in the play Aladdin through the park and rec, and she loves it.  She has a small part (1 sentance, and 2 words at another point), and is so excited.  I am very proud of her, and can't wait to it in May!

Words of Wisdom

I really hope that Tony and I are able to afford to pay at least some if not all of the girls college expenses, and if we are not financial able, I hope that they work hard to get scholarships or work through college to pay for it.  I would hate to see them stuck with student loan debt, it just doesn't seem to go away. On a lighter note, I am really starting to notice how funny Aubrey is at times.  She has quite the sense of humor.  Tonight at dinner, she was mimicking things I would normally say, just being funny.  I asked if she was copying someone and she said yes, and pointed at me.  She knows what she is doing.  She is started to get having a sense of humor, it's really cute, even when it is at my expense.  Of course Makenna was dying of laughter.  She has to cover her ears at dinner if Aubrey is funny, so that she doesn't spit out her food from laughing!

Birthday

Well tomorrow is my birthday, and tonight at dinner Makenna told me not to set my alarm in the morning.  She said she is going to make sure she wakes up by 7'oclock (usually we get up at 7:30), she is going to feed herself and Aubrey breakfast, get her and Aubrey dressed, beds made and everything she needs to do she will get done, and then she will wake me up when it is time to go.  Such a sweet girl I have, not sure how I got so lucky!  Aubrey was excited because she wants to pick out her own shirt, and will let Makenna pick out pants that match the shirt:)

Braces

Big day today, Makenna is getting braces put on!  She is so excited, and I don't have the heart to burst her bubble, and tell her she will probably be in pain:(